2004....

I can proudly say that i have cleared BOTH my table n closet!!hahha..after weeks n weeks of delaying..ive finally completed both tasks today!!*cheerzz* kinda have a good feeling after that..like put the past behind..start new..means sort of more to me esp after the shitty incident..almost didnt wanna wake up this morning..every time i open my eyes, i recall the shit..my heart hurts..i try to close my eyes again n go back to sleep where nothing matters...anyway here are some things i have planned for the yr 2004....(not in any order)

1) Be a better person.

2) Be stronger both physically n mentally.

3) Spend more time with my mum.

4) Be more of an all-rounder.

5) Be able to make decisions which i wun regret n be less of a procrastinator.

6) Learn a new instrument or sport..or jus improve on what i already know...

7) Have more friends around me...be a better friend to those i already know..

8) Dont let anyone bring me down or allow any guy to create hell in my life.

9) Bring my family closer together.

and lastly.........

10) BE HAPPY n HAVE A GREAT 2004!!!!!!!

haizz...hope tt bastard drops dead n dies...

jus as i thought the whole hp thingy is over after i buy my new hp...the bill came..all i can say is that f***er had a great time chatting on MY account....im not the type who uses vulgarities(ask my pals they know...)..but nothing but that came out wen i saw the bill..u would too..trust me..i mean like i had already spent soooo much on the new hp...den now i'm chargeable for a horrible amt which i didnt even use...wat the F***?!?!singtel wun do anything..i've asked..now y in the world should i pay for tt??i CAN pay but watever for??arghhh...wish that asshole would jus die or something!!!

actually i wanted to write abt how great Rondeau was...all the great things that happened...haizz...but now too fed up n depressed...can onli recall the sad part of things....nvm,i'll try...overall, i tink the performance tt dae was ok...not bad..(if i say so myself..hehhe)..i really enjoyed myself performing..can say tt it's one of my best performance in poly sooo far...took some pictures..not as many as i wished though...hehhe..n didnt manage to take pic of the guy i wanted somemore!!he looked pretty good tt nite *grinzZ* ...actually all the guys looked veryy smart tt nite...well, dunno y i felt that way...but wen i saw how janice n all were rushing abt b4 the concert...i was kinda worried abt my treasurer post...think i will die jus from collecting band fund!!!!haiz..wad a horrible way to end the yr...thought can go enjoy 2nite..but now with the twist of things, think i better save the money jus in case i realli HAVE to pay for that bastard's doings...manz,this must be the most vulgar entry of mine ever!! arghhh...veryyy fed up!!!!

"I have a right to my anger, and I don't want anybody telling me I shouldn't be, that it's not nice to be, and that something's wrong with me because I get angry."

Maxine Waters, in Brian Lanker, I Dream a World, 1989

rain rain rain....

school is going to start soon!!!!!all the hectic n crazy life is going to happen again!!!sometimes i think poly life is kinda funny...rush n push yrself for like 4 months den rot for 2 months...personally, i dun mind the 2 months part...hehhe..sooo fast...overall, i can say that i enjoyed myself more this holiday compared to the last 2...y??guess there are many reasons why...will not mention it now...
anyway yesterdae was my buddy's birthday...finally 18...used to make fun of her for going to pubs illegally...!!hehhe...u're off the hook for now buddy...wait till u're waiting to be 21!!hehhe..torture will start again then...
on another note...i HATE the hp i'm using temporary now...it SUCKS!!!the batt. is sort of spoilt...so it can die in like half a day...dun wanna waste money on new batt cos i wun be using this hp for long..suckers~!!so friends, bear with me until i get a new hp(wun b long)...sorrie if i take a longggg time to reply u...or if i dun know who u r wen u message..thousand apologies....

"A good friend can tell you what is the matter with you in a minute. He may not seem such a good friend after telling."

wanna know more abt me.....heheh...dun wan den dun read....

For formality's sake..
Name? Hasinah aka Joyz
School? Ngee Ann Poly
Location? Singapore
Working? not now

HAvE Y0U EVER..

Wished you were dead?
sometimes wen life hits rock bottom for me...not now though..cos it's the HOLIDAYS!~!!

Broken somebody's heart?
hmm...hope not

had your heart broken?
yeah..

Lied to get what you want?
of cos...white lies..neccessary in life

Loved somebody so much you'd do anything for
him/her?
hmm...guess so..but haven found 'THE ONE' whom i'll die for yet...hehhe...

Seen a movie star?
duh..like every morning wen i look into the mirror...hhehe..

Felt like killing someone?
not to the extent of really doing it...

Lost someone you truly love?
GOD has been good...not yet...

D0 Y0U..

Watch romantic shows?
yes

Cry a lot?
last time, yes...now not tt much

Smoke?
no..

Drink?
does water count??

Drive?
not jus yet...soon..

Do you drink and drive?
ermm...question dun apply to me yet..

Like anyone right now?
trying to un-like tt person...

Love anyone right now? (and we don't mean your
family members or relatives)
i guess not...

Sleep early at night?
recently...but if not sleep ard 1+..

WHAt d0 Y0U..

Feel like doing right now?
i feel like eating a pill which will make my sick go away so i can go out...

Wish for every time you see a shooting star?
hmm..depends on the situation..happiness...

Think of during a kissing scene at the movies?
ermm...not much..

Want in life?
to be happy..

Hate most about yourself?
dun hate anything..but jus wish tt i can look better in the appearance department...

Like most about yourself?
hmm...my eye lashes??hehhe...

WH0 W0Uld Y0U..

Like to kiss?
hmm...

Marry if you had to marry someone right this
moment?
Michael Jackson!!!hehehhe....he seems like a great person...

Want your ex to end up with??
...

WHAt's Y0Ur..

Favourite colour?
blue

Favourite cocktail?
Singapore Sling...for now lah...

Favourite number?
7 or 11

Favourite place to chill out?
beach...or home is aso okie...

Ideal date like?
cool weather...at the beach mayb..jus chilling n enjoying each other's company...

Motto?
Change what u can...Accept what u cant...

The weirdest thing you've ever done?
doing this...think must be the effect of the medication...!!!!

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

sick agaiN~!!!

down with the flu i tink...manz..kanna rain too much over the last few days...n aso due to tiredness...haven got the chance to rot at hm properly since the starting of this month...!!den got depression wen lost my hp recently...hhehhe...so add all the factors together = SICK...anyway results are out...not tt fantastic..n like wat i say every semester.."Next semester MUST study harder!!" hehhe...

"Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow the talent to the dark place where it leads."

tired but happy....

yahoo!!!finally collected some 'green' packets from relatives..hehhe....cos had band camp on the first weekend of hari raya..i didnt get any $$ until NOW!!!n i aso almost missed this chance because of band aso u know!!!luckily i managed to rush to the family gathering in time...hahha...jus reached there not even 5 mins n i got like $10+ le!!!hhahah...jealous?!?!?hhahhaha...cool manz... ;p

"Money frees you from doing things you dislike. Since I dislike doing nearly everything, money is handy."

horrible as it sounds..it's the fact of the world...if not tell me why are u working soo hard for tt blink-blink..

i hope she'll treat u good....

phew..a packed weekend finally over...had band camp over the weekend den a performance on monday morn..thought i would have died of exhaustion...hahha...anyway camp was GREAT!!!ermm...most part of it anyway...vincent was sooo damn funny..was like laughing more than 65% of the time...practice was okie la..can be improved though...mus jia you!!
haizz..found out who he likes le...feeling not tt great...guess i'm not really that over him yet...haiz..how long before i can get over him??!!??haizz....

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."