Thursday, February 27, 2020

Go away beaded, low morale stranger!

I really don’t understand why I’m so short tempered recently! 🤦🏼‍♀️😣


I easily get triggered and explode so often at everyone that I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. Becoming a Monster that I’m not proud of.......


Plus usually with the hubs, I still can ren cos I know his temper is shit. So if I also shitty temper, we sure W.A.R!!!


And that exactly is what has been happening recently!

Just like that enimem & Rihanna sòng:

“When a tornado meets a volcano.....”



Really not happy with how we are right now....


The quality of our relationship has dropped.

The quality of how we spend our time with each other has dropped.

The quality of our conversations is like 💩!



I always understood when they say that you have to work at your marriage if u want it to last.


But I think I now understand better that u REALLY have to work at it!


Especially with kids and work and life, it’s so easy to just let all those take control. Till the point u suddenly look back and realise “hey, what happened to us?”


We struggle so much to have a bit of me-time that we barely have the chance to get WE-time!


If I stay quiet cos I’m annoyed at being ignored, you won’t even notice till I purposely don’t answer you or u see my black face.


Talking about being ignored, these few weeks, my annoying son has been doing that to me too!

It actually got to a point where I wondered issit nobody can hear me talk?!?!?! Why I talk and ask question, I get no reply from my husband and son!!!! 😡


So I conclude that all these pent up frustration/anger + lack of proper rest = easily irritable me


Too bad for whoever crosses my path! 



Haizz..... that plus lack of money too la...... tts a whole other issue.


I miss my self-motivated, conversation buddy, partner at work & home companion.......

Recently I’m just living with a beaded sickly, low morale stranger. 😢

Friday, February 14, 2020

Emo V-day Post

Quite sad when he thinks i want a present but all i want is a nice sincere & tight hug (it’s alright no kiss cos he’s v sick)...

He knows I crave the physical contact with him (aside from sex ok! 🙄)..,,,,, but yet time and time again, I get none...

He says he loves me........ but yet ........

Oh well, happy Valentine’s Day my love.... 
I’m still glad you chose to be with me and for our 2 beautiful children.