Don 9-12wks

21st dec:

Ytd u went mitten-less for a WHOLE day!! Thank goodness you didn't scratch yr face and disfigure urself so far! 😂

It's been a busy week for mama... With work appts plus the year end rush of preparing the calendars to send out!

Mummy misses spending time with you and just 'talking' to you.. Even napping with u is treasured!

Nvm, later part of this wk shld have more time to spend with u don don...

In fact tmr night we'll be going Gardens by the Bay with both set of your grandparents! Let's hope it'll be a fun and enjoyable outing for ALL!!!

Cos ur daddy has a bad toothache and he'll be removing tt tooth tmr morn! Haha..

Dunno whether he'll be a grouchy monster after the teeth is out anot... If it were me, I sure no mood to go de...

Oh well, let's see how it goes! Praying hard that it doesn't rain and that we WILL have fun!!! ☺️👍🏼

27th dec:

Actually mama typed a whole post on 26th alrdy.. Talking abt your 1st Christmas and all...

Then stupidly I didn't manage to save it then now it's all gone!

And the feel is no longer there to rewrite another one to the same effect! Esp now at 2.30am! Arghh...

But in a sentence, u were blessed with many nice gifts this year! Not even one was rubbish! Hahah... U're a lucky boy Don Don! :)

On a whole other note, mummy is feeling super unwell now.. Having a v v bad sore throat and I think fever too!

So pls be a gd boy ok.. Let me be able to sleep a few more hours here n there to quickly recover...

Hate such feelings...

6.30pm: Don Don, yr daddy sometimes makes me sooo love him but sometimes makes me soooo annoyed too!

This morn I put a bottle of bm into the bottle warmer before I went to pump and also cos u weren't ready to drink yet..

Then when I came out after pumping I saw ur daddy feeding you but then I ALSO saw a bottle still in the warmer!

So i just said I alrdy heated up the milk what and stared at him in disbelief.

Then it was cold silent treatment from then onwards.. He went for appt right after tt also la..

But when he came home just now, he was still acting all in his princess-sy (now I know where u got this character from!).

Turns out he thinks what happened this morning is MY fault!!!

As in I'm the one to blame for what happened this morn..

He said "I'm angry with what u said this morning."

😦 Lao Niang had to throw away a bottle of gd & warm bm (which is alrdy taking so much effort to pump) just because u cldnt open your eyes big enough to see the bottle in the warmer while u were making the milk!!

And it's MY fault! 😠😤

31st dec:

Definitely not the way my past New Year's Eve mornings have been!

This is almost like hell torture... Then again of cos hell is worse la... But for now, I'm almost to the point of tearing my hair out!!!

You Don Don, have been crying n crying!!! Sleep not even a few mins, then suddenly wake up crying and can't be comforted...

It's been going on for a few days alrdy! Probably the 3rd or 4th day now... Probably even 1wk! I've lost count!

Too shag! Plus yr dear mama n papa are sick! Did I pass u my cough or bugs tts y u're so grouchy too?

Ohh man.... I'm sooo unwell now plus hearing u cry for so many hours.. N now carrying u in the sarong with my hurting back........ 😣

To think yr daddy thinks me staying at home with u means I have more free time! Perhaps some days ya.. But like today...😲

I know not easy to handle work n to come home to a fussy baby n emo- unbalanced wife!

Perhaps we shld just accept that we're alrdy doing the best we each can with the resources we have!

Great, u're starting again......

2nd jan:

Yes baby, it's 2016 le... And u just cried yourself into the new year!

You've been crying pretty inconsolably for the past week.. And all at home are pretty traumatised by you...

Now at doc low's clinic.. Really hope he can figure out what is wrong with you and most importantly how to make you feel better...

I really pray for you to have the bestest of health baby... Pls be alright...

8th jan:

It's your first time celebrating daddy's birthday ytd! 

Daddy decided to stay home to celebrate cos he wasn't feeling too well.. Actually all of us are not well.. 

You, my dear son have developed a cough! Poor thing.. After changing the FM, I think it got too heaty for u.. Either that or u caught the bug from us..  :(

Anyway we settled the haircut stuff for yr 100th day too!! Quite excited to get the small hanging keychain to put in the car! :)

So fast.. Nxt wk you'll be 3mths old le... U growing so fast each day! Loving you so much more by the hour!

*muacks my dear*

Feelings of bliss

As I sit here now pumping, unable to do much other stuff physically, I can take a breather from the rush of constantly doing something.

And with such a break, I get to see things happen around me more clearly.

I can't help but to feel v v grateful!! For who the hubs is as a person.

Without having to say anything, he started cleaning up the baby after showering himself.

This is AFTER both of us having an early morning, him in office n me going for appt.. After which we still went for a quick Christmas shopping to settle a few more gifts..

Both shagged but he did stuff even without having to be told.. N i can't help but to feel really blessed.

Because not many guys will take it upon themselves to do such things for their baby.. I know there WILL be guys who do.. And I'm so soo very lucky that the one I have by my side is one who will really take care of his child.. More than just providing the monetary side of things.. At least my guy will still take care of the physical needs of his child too!

Don Don is so lucky!  :)

Too many guys are just sperm donors la... All they do for their baby is to play a few mins here n there.. Some provide monetary..

But what is love and why bother to have a kid if you don't want to be there for his physical and emotional needs too?

So after saying so much, as of now, I feel that donnie is lucky n really blessed that his mummy n daddy are so hands-on with him.. And that he has the ultimate love from BOTH parents!  :)

And for as long as God allows, I pray that we will be able to give this love to him forever and also the same to our future children...

Ameen....

Tears shed

In my almost 10years of biz, I have cried in front of a client on 3 occasions..

1) When I was in my initial years of biz, 1st year if I'm not wrong, a client asked me out for a movie. 

We watched Switch (an amazing Adam sander movie). In tt movie, the main character had this remote control which allowed him to fast forward time, rewind etc.. Basically all the stuff a normal remote shld be able to do.. Even mute..

So over time, it became a habit for him to fast forward boring stuff and duties..

Till a point this remote had a mechanism where it stalls the 'favourites' of the user..

Which means things he used to fast forward eventually fast forwarded itself..

Oh, this dude was busy earning money n trying to climb up the ranks.. In exchange he missed out time with his family n wife..

So anyway at tt point of my life, I really felt imbalanced.. In terms of time management and all.. Was rushing sales most of the time.. N was still under Peter's micro managing.

Some point of the movie, I cried.. Cos I 'felt' sooo much of what the main character was going thrgh...

Was a little embarrassing to have cried in front of a client.. Hahah... Thgh it was in the darkness of the cinema. But he knew la.. (He was trying to 'chase' me.. So I was trying to remain emotionally unavailable)

But he saw my weak point! Haha.. 

Yup, so tt was the 1st time!

2) The 2nd time had lesser of a story to it.. My client's dad passed away..

This happened last year..

I have personally seen and spoken to the dad before.. This client's mum had stroke  n passed away a few years back too.. He's the only child..

So when the dad passed on, I felt sooo sad for him.. Being on his own at such a young age!

Having to deal with everything and all.. An orphan..

I broke down at the funeral when he was telling me about his dad's last days... :(

3) Today is the 3rd time! It's this couple clients who is going thrgh a divorce..

I knew the wife first and the husband eventually took up a plan frm me.. But was never tt close to him..

Today he shared with me the story that lead to their divorce... And I've learnt so much.

I'll write about it proper soon.. Cos I wanna remember this forever.. N let it be a lesson that wp n I won't have to go thrgh..

Anyway when he talked abt the sadness of not seeing his children n how much he wants to see them, I broke down..

It just felt so wrong...

Yup, so these are the 3 times so far.. Will write more abt the 3rd one asap...

Meanwhile this pumping session only allows me to write this much! Hahah...

Till nxt time!

Personal time

It was a full night of baby duty... The 3hr-ly feeds.. The fuss in between then the washing of bottles and sterilising it..

Then there also the time taken to pump...

So now at 10.25am, I feel as if I'm hit by a truck... Actually to be honest it's not tt bad.. I think a 2-hr undisturbed nap shld fix this...

But it's just that I think baby has a lot of wind in his tummy.. N tt is making him soooo miserable..

Goodness, imagine when constipation happens.. At this point, I rather it be a IF nt when..

So now this boy is in a tummy down koala bear position.. Hopefully this will ease the discomfort..

 Wonder if there are other methods to ease stomach wind discomfort? Besides ru yi oil, rid wind, massaging his tummy n now placing him on his tummy..

I even did the leg rotation thing n accu point on the feet massage too..

All works cos he's been farting.. LOTSSS!! But his tummy still feels bloated..

5pm: The hubs is preparing to leave for his vball game now.. I mean I know we agreed that we all shld have tha rights to some personal time here n there......

But somehow at this point, seeing him get ready to leave...My heart abit not balanced..

I dunno why la... Wanna blame it on pms or hormones.. But even that I also dunno what's the new cycle dates now..

Maybe it's because baby is v fussy these few days.. So kinda hoping he'll be ard to go thrgh this together..

Haiz... Maybe lack of slp? Maybe i just want more attention from him on me?

Definitely not a fair time to say such a statement, but it sure feels that we're nt spending much quality time together..

Either party is usually feeling exhausted.. So nt much else is said except the stuff that is needed..

I know he is helping ALOT alrdy.. It'll be just selfish of me to say i expect more.. But...

Sigh.. Don't say le.. This is just a temp stage... Cashy will recover and stop being so sticky! Baby's stomach wind will all be farted out! Wp n I will cease to feel sleepy or tired ever again!

We'll get thrgh this!  •fighting•

Don 5-8wks

5th dec:

Time now is 2.25am.. U just had your 2am feed...

Suddenly it strike me tt i should document yr weekly life as how I did while u were in my tummy!! Haha... (Wonder why it took so long for tt thought to happen! I'll blame it on exhaustion!)

So anyway u're now into wk 7.. It's been a hell of a ride for both me and your daddy!

It took us quite awhile to get used to ur 3-hr schedule.. Actually still adjusting too!

Plus the pumping of milk for me = 2 extremely tired adults

Then there's also work in the picture as well.. So trying to manage all that had taken quite a toll on us... 

Plus you were more than a handful to handle a few days back... So we succumbed to giving you the pacifier!  :(

All along mama really wanted to avoid giving u that.. But when u had those uncontrollable crying fits, especially at night, we gave in...

So now, u're really much better.. U have your moments la, but otherwise still better than wk6!

At this point of time, I don't think u still can really see us but maybe soon?

Also cashy is adjusting really well to you.. 

Your poor sis is not feeling too well at this point when the pix was taken.. So she wants our attention much more too... But at least she still loves you..

See how closely she's lying nxt to u? Tt only happens when a doggy feels no threat frm the human..  :)

Mama n daddy feel blessed tt you 2 can get along.. When u get older, u must treat  jiejie properly ok..

Ok, I'm gonna stop here cos there's actually plenty to update but mama is feeling tired at this crazy hour...

7th dec:

My dear Don don.. U've been creating havoc in the house these last few days!

Drink also cry.. Don't drink also cry.. Put on bed to sleep, halfway also cry!

So so so fussy baby.... All of us at home really dunno what to do with u le...

We're guessing it's stomach wind so very  uncomfortable... But when we give u medicine in yr milk, u don't even finish the milk! How to cure like tt...

Pls let this stage pass quickly.. Cos it's making us even more tired than it already is..

But mainly is because it pain our hearts to see u this way... So uncomfortable and pissed off...

Mama really wishes you well and good health asap!!! Love u my baby.. I know you'll fight thrgh this..

Dear God, give me and wp strength and energy to get thrgh this phrase of don's growing path...

12th dec:

Today mama finally applied for yr medical plan.. Cos I was waiting for yr testis checkup to be over n hopefully get a report to say tt it's no longer an issue..

But tt didn't happen so I decided that don't wait le.. Just apply..

However while filling in ur application, I realised that what u have may be considered under the congenital stuff that can claim under my HS!!

Really hope tt if it is, then this will help pay for your hospital bill instead!! :)

Then our this whole birth, is FREE!!! Fully paid for by my HS plan.. Hahah...

Really hope can claim...

Wk8 now btw... Today u started to make some coo-ing sounds.. Quite cute!! And u're starting to really have more waking moments.. Then get pek chek after tt when u can't get to sleep cos played just a little too long.. Silly boy!

Fussy baby!

U know u have reached another level of motherhood when u actually DREAM about changing your child's diapers and feeling upset looking at an almost empty bag of diapers.. Also thinking why do we use up the diapers so fast esp when it's soooo ex!!!

Only to hear ur baby cry the next moment in REALITY.. Fussing for a diaper change..

And the pleasant surprise u can't help but feel when u realised that yr stash of diapers are still pretty full! 

 Hahah...

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Now at 4.30pm, I'm reaching my max of tolerance...

Today is simply a bad day.. Doggy has been sick since ytd.. So she was super sticky.. 

Sleep also stick right nxt to me.. Thn now baby has been fussing since morning!

Hasn't even sleep properly.. Keep shocking himself awake or dunno what shit then start crying..

Even shutting his eyes take longer than usual...

Dunno the pacifier is helping or causing this problem! Haizzz....

He's quiet now.. Think I shld quickly get some shut eye now too.....

Shagged max!