Shit happens!

I was going through some comic sites to cheer myself up when i saw something which i just HAD to share! hhahha.. enjoy!

I wanted to start off this entry with the intention of portraying how angry i am at myself for my indecisivness. But halfway through, i started feeling all lousy and deleted the whole thing instead.

Baseline is i really truely dislike/hate/despise/detest/loathe (+ all the other hundreds of synonyms for the word 'hate') my indecisive nature!

I tried many ways to change that. I took over alot of decision making stuff in my family blah blah blah ..to a certain extent, it has helped. But the bulk of tt characteristic or whatever damn thing u call it still stays!

Esp when it comes to big decisions like the one im facing now.

Scenario:

Has part-time job working at a tuition centre. Enjoys time spent there. Likes working with the kids even though after each session, comes home and vomit a bucket-full of blood.
Spend the remainder of time each week reading and doing other stuff. Likes the relaxed pace of life.
Plans to do this till sch term start in Feb 06.

ONE DAY....

Suddenly spots a job that seems interesting. Job pays well. Everything looks fine. But catch is it's a 1yr contract and has 24hr on-call duties twice a month. Taking job will spoil all plans made beforehand. How? Wait for other job opportunities (which may not be as good in the end?) or take this one? How hOW HOW!!!??!??!?!

Can someone please give me advice on this? Accepts advice in any form. Call, email, write a letter (best not to be in this form la..cos i need to give my final decision veryyy soon :P)...anything.....


haizz..dunno la..just feeling very veryy veryyy lousy these days. Actually, things havent been looking good since my business didnt manage to take off.. :'(
n no, im not depressed because of that. I've moved on..but it just seems that since then, more stuff keeps coming in and make things confusing for me.
Im feeling like one lost confused little girl right now!
I Soooo feel like crying la..........

-pause-


And to make things worse, i came across some photos earlier which brought back some memories. Happy memories. This one managed to keep me happy and smiling like an idiot for about 1 month after the pix was taken.




Remember that jo? (not tt clear but i think u will know)

Can u believe it's coming to 2 years since that day?

Lots of memories.

I never regretted taking part in the National Day Parade '03 as an usher.
If one were to minus off the cold KFC/Pizza Hut meals every saturday during rehearsals, the experience was actually quite a nice one!

Counting the fact that i never had the chance to experience the parade LIVE before, everything during the weekly rehearsals was interesting. The actual day of the parade was the best though. Despite being sunburnt to a terrible state even BEFORE the parade started. Think i suffered first-degree burns tt day ah!!

But experiencing the deafening fly-pass of the planes, the macho march-pass of the soldiers, the magical fireworks (love tt the besT!!!) and of cos the abundance of good looking army guys to look at made the burns worth it man! :P

-sighs-

i want to re-live that day again. i dun mind the burn. i dun mind the endless waiting. i dun mind the lousy KFC chicken we had tt day. i dun mind anything.
i just wanna be happy and smile right from within again!!!
i just wanna see Alden again?

Could it be?

On the way home from tuition yesterday, i think i saw something quite wrong.
It bugged me a little then. But it sure is bugging me like hell for the whole of today!

I dunno exactly what to make out of it. And as of this moment, i dun dare to say out what i saw onto this blog. Just in case.

Worse to worst scenario, it might be a ransom case or child-abuse. But if looking at things from another angle, a lighter one..it cld just be a mad dash of my imagination going wild.

I really hope it's the latter....


But somehow, this thing is seriously bugging me!! I really hope i didnt witness anything bad! I really hope that she is okay... -prays-

What a bleh~

Watching my sister study for her upcoming exams reminds me of how i used to suffer during exam period.
-the back pains from sitting too long
-the lack-of-life feeling from doing nothing else but studying
-the constant need to do anything else but study e.g. SLEEP! walk ard..clear my room....

Ai yah, kinda glad that it is not part of my lifestyle anymore (at least not for now).














ehhh...i dunno what to type anymore la~

i think deep down inside, im feeling a damn mixed of emotions.

Partly i envy joyce and eliza cos they're gonna start school on monday.(oh, and monica too..) A bit of me also wanna study again (like ard 30%).

Then there's the other bit of me (the lazy part) who feels that life is great as it is now. Not needing to study..no tests..no projects..no tiring and boring lectures..no NOTHING!

THat's the part which makes me wanna go back study.

There's like nothing to do these days.

Noo, dun get me wrong. I dun rot at home all day. Im working part-time.
And during my free-days, i'll clean up the house(cos mum now old so must help out..good girl hor~), read the theory book for my FTT, read story book,watch tv, go driving lessons, go out with friends,play with my fat mousey..

(mmm..what was i trying to say?)

ooo, yah..

i think what im saying is that im just feeling kinda stagnant.
There's nothing much to really look foward to.
Ya lar, there's always the occasional party or outing i cant wait to get to but other than that,nothing.

Or maybe im just too used to studying life. After all ive been studying for the past 1,2,3......15years (hehe..i included k1,k2 aso). That's like more than HALF MY LIFE!!!

Haizz...anyway, i dunno what's my aim in typing this entry. Just bored. Waiting for jo to send me her CV.


k la, before i end wanna wish Eliza, Joyce and Monica all the best in their next phase of life! Jia you k.. No matter how tough things get, keep going!! Esp mon, take care ya. Now weather there very cold right? Wear thicker clothes k.
To eliza, hope everything goes well with u and yr roommateS..hehe.. study hard hor.
Joyce, study hard aso k..Then will be a good good teacher when u graduate. Enjoy yr travelling journey to sch aso! heheh..


stupid rain..making me feel even more lousy inside..no mood to go out later already laR!!!

Graduation ceremony

IM CURSED!!!! Everytime i tell anybody about ANY of MY plans, like MY plan for the week or MY plan for a particular day, it will end up NOT happening!!!

It's really a tried-and-tested thing i tell u! I realised the phenomenon a few years back (yes! This 'thing' didnt just start recently!!). But in the past month or so, The 'Thing' has worsen!!

So therefore dear friend of mine as u read this, please do not ever ask me for my plans about anything anymore. Freaky man!! And also BEcAuSe of this curse, i will refrain from blogging abt any upcoming events and only do so after. Sooo Sorry!

But Luckily, there was an abundance of happenings around me the past week to talk abt.


Let's start with pictures from my Graduation Ceremony on 11th July 2005.

WELCOME TO GRADUATION 2005!!


jo was actually just testing her camera while i was the picture target thus the dumb pose!


k, now tts me with my scroll!

Alrighty, among the tONS!! of pictures taken tt day, i wld only post up certain ones here..All pix which features Me + another person will not be put up due to space shortage.

moving right along, we have....


my fyp supervisor, Dr Lim and my project partner, joanne


Hard-earned Diploma!!

After crazy report writing for FYP



After 3years of exams, tests AND report writing!!






me and jona

I love this TSO man! She can be soo funny at times! Sometimes very playful for someone her age too! Love her good friend, Goh Weiling too! That gal is also another person i need to give credit for the smooth completion of my FYP.

Ooo,funny story i GOT to share! After collecting my scroll from stage, i was on the way back to my seat and had to pass a whole row of TSOs who i simply adore(not all though~ hhhehe..). Anyway as i walked past, they all started shaking hands with me.. congratulating and all... Point to note though was that the people infront and behind me DID NOT receive such treatment! hahhaa..

Am i good or am i good? hahhah...For a moment it felt as if i were the top student or something! :P my partner said she received the same treatment too!! What to do? All the TSOs simply love us la~ right jo? ;)


here's my gang + the other gang from 3F08= 90% of the gals of the class!hhehe


Glad to have found this bunch of friends! Love them to bits..


Presenting Crappygang with the TOP STUDENT of biotech!! *bows down in respect*

For 3 years i have felt this way...

dun u think


look like


can see the resemblance there? man..uncanny resemblance right? the nose..cheeks........mmmmmmm

[author's postnote: the elmer fudd look-alike i was refering to was DR Forday..Not joanne. No way i could crop the pix without any part of jo's head in it so Jo Stays..hehhe]


Anyway after the ceremony, the gang decided to go home for a change of clothes and some rest before meeting up for dinner. Dinner was as usual filled with laughter. We went to Sakae Sushi.

There we got split into threes to sit at 2 tables. Thereby starting the 'counting plate war'! There were 2 category to compete in. The 'Individual'- category and the 'Combined Table'-category.

For my table, there was eliza,ash and of cos me. Right away, the other 2 eliminated me as a competitor for the 'Individual' category!!! arrghhh!!

I felt i could do it and prove them wrong...

but after 5 plates..



yupyup..i was on the verge of puking! next time ash and eliza...next time i'll beat u with my record!!!

oooo,if u're drinking water now..here's a warning before u look at the next pic! Finish drinking first...











whAHHAHAH..ugliest pose ever taken of monica!! Ohh boy...she's sooooo gonna kill me. But by the time she reads this, she'll probably be toooo far away(in perth) to inflict any physical damage on me! ppbbthhh....teeheehee~


To end this super long entry, here's the new haircut of Ash Tie Wan Jun



super freaking short ah!!!!! what were u thinking ash? what were u thinking huh huh huh?!?!?


Anyhoos, will end here.. Will update abt another little outing the gang had asap.

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I like how my sister-in-law looked on the ROM last thursday!
I like the idea of how my brother is married to a GREAT gal!
I like the way my hair looked that night.
I like the party my buddy candice threw on sunday.
I like it how i can wake up at whatever time i please these days!
I like the idea of being my own boss.
I like for my business to take off well.
I like for all my friends to pray that that happens... :D