Quarrel #4745626
Today we quarrelled big time again.. I realised every time we're apart for a few days, we tend to quarrel. Major kind.
Today u shouted at me cos I didn't ans when u spoke to me. U were unhappy at my response to u saying that u wanted to go fishing.
All I wanted was to finally spend some quality time with u after a week of hectic reservist for u.. I knew tt thrgh the wk u were really tired. So I closed 1eye when u weren't too vocal emotionally. Or when u didn't really ask how my day went. Or u didn't really react much when I shared with u some happenings in office.
I just took it tt u were tired. So I supported u by waking u up in the morning. I supported by nt disturbing with u multiple messages thrgh the day.. But all the time I missed u sooo much!
And so imagine my disappointment when today, Friday, I knew u'll be able to book out, n when I asked u what time u were reaching home (so tt we cld probably go out catch a movie if u weren't too tired), u said tt u'll be goin fishing with a campmate.
U knw my train of thought: wow, first thing he books out n is free for the night, he decides to do something he loves. Without even checking with me before arranging his 'outing' to see if I was having appt or anything.
I knw it's like really easy to take things for granted because we're staying together. But many times ive told u, being together PHYSICALLY doesn't mean we're even on the same page. Because....... Because u're always in YOUR OWN WORLD!!!
It's frustrating because I'm getting sick n tired of trying to get yr attention. Trying to get yr simple touch of affection. It's sickening because every time I lower my expectation, yr efforts drop further!
I never needed u to be perfect.. All I want is for u to maintain the way u treat me after u knw u've did something wrong. Tt concern n effort.. Just so I knw u care.
Because I knw deeply that u DO care for me.. But if u're not gonna learn how to SHOW it now, we'll be one of those old couples who lose tt spark eventually when kids come into the picture. And over my dead body, do I want tt to happen...
So as u'll probably be upset while fishing n prospecting yr friend, I'm here just tired with my sore eyes frm crying. Why am I crying? I don't know.......
Maybe I'm just too fearful to go to that part of me now... Maybe one day we'll get to that......
But for today... Tonight... I think I'll just prefer to stay away from you....
Today u shouted at me cos I didn't ans when u spoke to me. U were unhappy at my response to u saying that u wanted to go fishing.
All I wanted was to finally spend some quality time with u after a week of hectic reservist for u.. I knew tt thrgh the wk u were really tired. So I closed 1eye when u weren't too vocal emotionally. Or when u didn't really ask how my day went. Or u didn't really react much when I shared with u some happenings in office.
I just took it tt u were tired. So I supported u by waking u up in the morning. I supported by nt disturbing with u multiple messages thrgh the day.. But all the time I missed u sooo much!
And so imagine my disappointment when today, Friday, I knew u'll be able to book out, n when I asked u what time u were reaching home (so tt we cld probably go out catch a movie if u weren't too tired), u said tt u'll be goin fishing with a campmate.
U knw my train of thought: wow, first thing he books out n is free for the night, he decides to do something he loves. Without even checking with me before arranging his 'outing' to see if I was having appt or anything.
I knw it's like really easy to take things for granted because we're staying together. But many times ive told u, being together PHYSICALLY doesn't mean we're even on the same page. Because....... Because u're always in YOUR OWN WORLD!!!
It's frustrating because I'm getting sick n tired of trying to get yr attention. Trying to get yr simple touch of affection. It's sickening because every time I lower my expectation, yr efforts drop further!
I never needed u to be perfect.. All I want is for u to maintain the way u treat me after u knw u've did something wrong. Tt concern n effort.. Just so I knw u care.
Because I knw deeply that u DO care for me.. But if u're not gonna learn how to SHOW it now, we'll be one of those old couples who lose tt spark eventually when kids come into the picture. And over my dead body, do I want tt to happen...
So as u'll probably be upset while fishing n prospecting yr friend, I'm here just tired with my sore eyes frm crying. Why am I crying? I don't know.......
Maybe I'm just too fearful to go to that part of me now... Maybe one day we'll get to that......
But for today... Tonight... I think I'll just prefer to stay away from you....
posted by Joyz at
2/22/2013 09:27:00 PM
