Wrecked up hormones (once again)

Feeling so emo right now!

I know it’s mostly the damn hormones messing up! Almost TOTM... arghh....

But not without a basis also la.... just feeling very sian that not going forward fast enough work wise.... it’s alrdy end of July and my shortfall for this FY is like <—

Arghh the stress....

Then I really dunno how to handle with 2 kids and a quick tempered Husband.. while he’s good, I think don + rou can really get quite a handful at times.... so I don’t really wanna let him handle both at the same time though he says that he can....

(But at the expense of me having to face a grouchy old man, or at don being scolded more than necessary)

I’m mostly tired... he’s always tired....

How u tell me how.......

The weird dream keeps replaying in my head.. the one I had of granny posing me a question of how can I get better sales when I’m with the kids most of the time 😅

Was hoping to dream of daddy yet she case to me with this very timely question..

Anyway the other day I read about some CEO who says he don’t work between the hours of 5-9pm so that he can be ‘present’ with the kids... but as a result he has to make up for the lost time by waking up real early. Think he said 5am....

Hmmm for now, let me see how I can make up for lost time by putting in a few hours after rou goes to bed at night...

Haizzz what a Friday night....

I suddenly miss my carefree days...... fridays used to feel so different.

Arghhhh bloody hormones la.... 

I’m sorry son

I’m writing this with a heavy heart.....

Are u ok? Why do I feel that you’re so distant. Ure so short tempered with our boy all the time too! 

Are u numbing yourself from something that I should be aware of? Come back... talk to me like how we used to........

For the most part, you’re an amazing dad. Really.

But your temper is something that seems to be getting the better of you these days.

This is the 2nd time within a week that I’m so certain that #3 is out of the pix. We don’t have the patience for another one.... YOU don’t have the patience to manage another one..........

To be fair, Don is becoming quite a handful at times... but he’s our 1st kid, and who knows.... maybe ALL kids this age are like that?!?

Why do we expect him to be all prim & proper when all he’s doing is be himself— A CHILD.

I can alrdy tell that academically he is on the weaker side.

You (and I) don’t have the patience to teach him. And he doesn’t have the patience to learn from us.

But what makes us right to shout n scold him?? It’s like suddenly someone forcing us to learn Spanish and we’re expected to want to learn it and actually practice it as and when the teacher wants.

I’m not saying to go weak on him. Heck, I don’t even know what’s the best way to educate him.

But I definitely know that using fear and threatening which u seem to be doing all the time these days won’t work for long.

One day he will stand up. One day he will not turn to you after such an episode. One day he will talk back.

And when that day comes, will you slap him?

If yes, then on that same day, he may habour so much anger n hatred that the whole relationship is gone.

Would whatever that triggered the whole course of action be worth it?

How else should I bring it across to you the importance of how we should learn to manage our temper? Aren’t we the adults in this picture?

We expect a 3.5yr old to behave but yet we as 35years old get to scream and shout at him for every wrong doing?

I don’t know what’s the right way to guide our boy... but I seriously feel that we’re doing something wrong here.

😔

I’m sorry son...... mummy will try harder. (I hope daddy will too)