Wednesday, January 30, 2019

GD sucks!

This whole GD diet control + insulin thing is making me soooooo depressed..


The fact that I’m on insulin was upsetting enough. But the problem is that since fri which is when I first started taking the insulin, till today, wed, the post meals readings are not even within the ‘approved’ range!


Not even ONCE!


That’s also after increasing the dosage ytd!


Haizz... i can’t describe the feeling of seeing the post meal readings the last few times! Like how come increase dosage but result is the same as if didn’t increase?!?!!!

Eating similar food somemore!


Disappointment. Frustration. Worry. Anger. Stress. More worry. Giddiness. Lethargy. Self-pity. Regret. 


Maybe these are some of the words I’ll use...


Really feel a need for a good bear hug and a cry........


baby girl, please be alright ok... stop absorbing all of mummy’s sweet sweet blood.. mummy is sorry for not doing this better.. I’m sorry. Really really sorry..... 


Tuesday, January 29, 2019

Baby Update 6

Baby Update 6:


25th December:

Merry merry Christmas meimei! Wk27 of your baking... and mummy is in all kinds of pain!


I can’t stand for long, I can’t sit for long.... lying down gives comfort at times but I don’t have that luxury of doing that much these past recent weeks...


Been way too busy playing catching up at work... and boy, it’s hateful to have the financial year end in Dec! Stupid change that I need to learn how to manage better for FY2019!


But here’s abt you baby so I’ll complain abt that elsewhere...


My dear one, ure moving soooo much these days... but u really have the tendency to crush the wrong places and organs! I dislike u pushing outwards at my stomach the most! It’s like ure trying to push your way out right from the front of my tummy! 😡


Really painful and not funny ok....


The tailbone also hurts soooo bad when I sit.. how come all these pains now...... I still have 3mths more!!!! 2.5 if I’m trying to be positive! Hahah...

But regardless whatever, dear God, please let baby grow healthily in me till it’s time for her to come into this world.

Please let her develop well and enable me to protect her as she does so.

Bless her with love, wisdom, patience & grace that she needs when she arrives into our arms.


Baby girl, I love u so much already... muacks 😘😘😘💕


Baby Update 7

Baby Update 7:


12 jan:

Wk 29.. almost wk30 i guess... 


U know what? I’m getting real scared.... if ure early, we can see u in as early as 4wks time!

Otherwise maybe another 6 or 8?

But regardless the number, it’s waaaaaay quicker than I’m ready!


Hahah at least this time the cot n cupboard are already set up!


But still, there are plenty to be done before u arrive, dear girl....


And as always, money is a big part of our worry.... as of now, I dunno how we’re gonna manage to pay for both the hospital stay n a confinement nanny!


Was thinking just to get meals catered to save cost.... but how am I gonna survive without the extra help?


Oh God, really praying that I have a few more weeks of good sales to bring in the figures needed..please bless my hubby too ok dear Lord?


I think if money is not an issue, then more things can be done more efficiently...


Baby Update wise, ure moving or rather pushing outwards in such a painful way sooooo often that i swear once ure out, I’m gonna swaddle u sooooooo tight as revenge! 😠


Seriously in this area of fetal movement, u have surpassed your bro in giving me misery.

It’s past the point of “Wah, it’s so amazing to feel my baby move.... 😍

Now I still feel happy n relieved that ure moving but just don’t understand why it’s sooo painful?!!!



17 jan:

For the most parts of today, u didn’t really push against the front of my tummy. In fact u didn’t move much... 


Today was the 1st time in quite awhile that I wasn’t in too much discomfort yet that caused me worry! 😅


Glad after dinner, u started moving abit more... Guess all that healthy vege diet the last days left u hungry huh? Hahahha....


Sucks that sugar readings are still high despite my efforts.... bleh-



25th jan:

Oh dear baby girl.... even though this is my 2nd pregnancy, you are making me experience a lot of firsts!


Like doing the harmony test... and now this insulin jab!


Yes, officially as of today, I just took my first insulin jab at 7pm.. n i hope this will be the only period of my LIFE that I need to take insulin jabs!


Hope this diabetes thing gets under control and after ure born, I better get my (sugar) act together...


Really suck that I have such a sweet tooth! 


Anyway hoping this 6units of insulin will put the readings to the normal range! Really don’t wish to be injecting so much! And praying that my body doesn’t get reliant on this too!


Actually pain level wise, it’s not as bad as the finger prick to get the blood sample for the glucose readings! 


Maybe cos it’s also not on the sensitive finger tips ba.. this one is done on the flabby arms! Hahah...


Baby ah baby! Really hope I can manage my this sugar level thing and don’t get you too big! And also don’t result u in having to be on those glucose drips when you’re out!


Please pray for mummy too ok... good girl, please stay healthy and move around periodically so that mummy knows you’re alright..


31wks le.... it’s been soooo fast! We’re now in the midst of clearing up things so that we’ll have space for u when u arrive...


Love you my baby girl.... (just don’t like how u love to crush my bladder and push outwards on my belly part 😠)