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why do i keep thinking that today is wednesday?


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FACT OF LIFE #1

Do not trust anyone


As much as u like to think that the world is a wonderful place,
there ARE meanies around. The world is not a beautiful as you think. Wake up...

Though there will bound to be tt 1 person whom u can pour everything out to, note that there are not many of those around. So to prevent yourself from getting hurt, DO NOT TRUST ANYONE. (or at least those who you don't know too well)

You born alone (except in the case of twins), u die alone (even in the case of twins).


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gonna start my 2 cents worth of 'Facts of Life'..hehhehe...stay tune for more...

holiday

I badly need to go on a holiday. A short one is fine too!! Even if it's to malaysia...arghhh...cant wait for all these to be over.

Any friends wanna go overseas with me? JB?

Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life...


wow..it's amazing how at this present moment, i can relate to EVERY sentence of that song. Guess it's the PERFECT song which best describes how i feel these days...


N just for notes, don't EVER lie to me please. If you had to, you might actually like to try telling LIES THAT I CANT SEE THROUGH!!!
dun give me those oh-so brainless lies~ im not dumb ya..




ohh, and just for yr information...comfort words are not said only to make tt person happy for THAT MOMENT. Try sticking to what you said k. Thank you very much.

:)


[hey,and no worries..im not angry. There's NOTHING wrong with me.. There's no need to act like u're walking on eggshells ard me. Just saying out what n how im feeling on MY blog. Is that wrong TOO? or maybe i disappointed someone else again by saying all these? *gasps*

BUT if somehow u think the person im talking abt is YOU, hey come on... DUN BE SOOO FREAKING PARANOID! :) chances are, it's NOT YOU!]

Disappoint

Dun u dare again say that i disappoint you!!

I dON'T belong to anyone! Therefore i hold no responsibility for YOUR expectations of ME!!
You have disappointed ME just by what u said!!


I HATE that word!!

aRGHhhH.

REMEMBER, NEVER EVER AGAIN SAY THAT I HAVE DISAPPOINTED YOU!!!! NEVER!!!!

Last of lasts

I had my official LAST lesson of my tertiary education today. (tt is
if i dun get retained for any modules) Didnt realise that till 10mins ago.

Still in shock.


Just like that 3 years have gone by...It's fast.. Really...

Memories...Plenty of memories...


You know what..i can still remember my FIRST day at NP!!! hahah..
it started off horrible..

It was a pouring morning. Raining cats and dogs.. I had an 8am lesson. I was early though. Unfortuantely, didnt know tt 74 was such a crowded bus. The rain made things worse.. As a result, i was late for class. It was a computer programming class (just for notes, im still amazed that i passed tt module). So anyway, cos i came in late..Had absolutly no idea what he was talking about. Behind me was an ah-beng clad in slippers n all(yes,i was wondering how he got into Biotech), so i didnt dare to ask him. On my right was this guy who
kept frowning (found out as classmates later tt it's just his habit to frown) so naturally i didnt ask him too. On my left was the wall...
But i got through that lesson somehow..

Anyhoo, enough of reminisce.. Definitely learnt alot from the past 3 years. Not only education-wise but also socially.

I would like to thank those who have walked this journey with me.
Even those who jogged alongside for a short while. Every one of u have somehow or another affected me in a way (be it good or bad). Thanks!




mMm..like giving speech hor~ hahha... Anyway, not long more before everything ends. (april 5th -->external examination) Then im FREEEEE!!!!!!! (oh shucks, what am i to do after that?!?!?!)

an update?

It's funny how when i have the time to blog properly (like now) , i
end up being not in the mood to type about anything!

Mmm,just for the sake of updating... My life the past week had been a crazy one! Or rather a mentally-taxing one. Boy am i glad tt it's all
gonna end soon!!!!

Part of me IS of cos sad that very soon, i'll be out of NP..carrying on
with my next chapter in life. But there's a tinnie winnie part deeeeeeeppppppp deeeeeppppppppp down inside that cant wait for
all these to be oveR!

The rushing of assignments!
The writing of endless lists of reports!
The endless battle to hit tt 1000++ n 1000++ words per report!
The late nights just to complete a report!(rather early MORNINGS!!) [record so far is sleeping at 4am with 8am class the next day!
thus only having 2hrs of sleep!]

Yea yea...it's all gonna repeat itself again if i continue my studies. However, i cant take it anymore for NOW! [see..even the way i type becomes soooooooo report-like!! who the hell uses however when
typing informal?!?!]

Anyway though it's only 1am on a friday night (usually friday is my
dont-need-to-sleep night), ive decided to go charge up.
For the next few days/nights are yet again report rushing time....
After awhile..it kinda gets to u, you know ....

Ai yah...no mood to blog now...............................................





hehhe..but have to add something.. CHRIS Is sOOOO cuTE!!!! will try to put up his pix!!(though might need to get green light from his wanna-be gf *ahheemm JOANNE ahhheemm* )