Guilt for life

Sometimes I still wonder what it will be like if he's still around.....

I still feel the guilt of the fact tt we sort of 'dumped' him.. Like all his life he had worked soooo hard for the family and when towards the end, things were a little tougher and he kinda 'lost it', we gave up on him...

He changed soooo drastically but I don't think it was a sane one...

What Mel said still is stuck in my head after all these years... Was all that just symptoms of dementia?

It just seem so hazy now... Like how come I didn't realise it sooner or why didn't I handle the situation better?!?!

Some days I still just get paralysed with guilt... So sick in the stomach kind of guilt..  :(