Food & Don

The thing I can't stand about ppl and feeding food to baby (Don in particular):

So far it's usually the grandparents... Now that Don can eat more stuff, they are all so keen to stuff him with everything!

Every time either wp or myself say don't feed (then proceed to include a reason somemore!), they will reply "nvm la.. Just a little only"

So a little here a little there... That 1 stomach will eat all sort of nonsense! At such a young age somemore.

And the worse thing, he now knows what is nice and what's not his usual food! So WILL ask for more! And then the whole show down of crying and shouting when we say no!

If know then why go through it in the 1st place !?!! That's why as HIS parents, we say NO.. MEANS FREAKING NO LA!!!

Who made u his parents! U had your time to feed us whatever shit u wanted when we were younger.. Why now make things difficult..

😡

Ok, rant over... Time to eat durian!

God save me please

This post is gonna be a negative verbal diarrhoea... 

Dunno if it's the hormones (yes, surprise! Yet again la) or what... Just feeling soooooo overwhelmed right now

U know how since young, I always always hated the feeling of not having enough money... Like when it gets really tight..

So now with so many high amount bills, even just having $1000 in the bank makes me worry. Because easily 1 repair for the car can wipe tt amount clean! (Choy choy.... Please don't let it happen!)

Or if Don gets sick or goes for vaccination, easily few hundreds gone!

Arghhh... So many outstanding amounts I need to clear too! 

Doesn't help that sales are not really coming in fast and furious.. Not enough time put into work and not enough luck to have sales just ownself coming in

So how?

Feel emo and worry till headache lor... Fucked up la... Really feel like fuck! 

Fan blowing at me, back of my mind goes "oh ya, still got the SP services bills to pay"

Just wanna cry and go sleep and forget everything. But tts so gin-na... Cos it won't help anything. Tmr the shit is still there to clear. Plus end up with swollen eyes... More depressing...

Don takes up so much of my time n energy each day. I'm really happy to spend it with him but I know work is suffering as a result too.... 

Last on the chart for January.. With agents who are sub standard n even a part timer included, I'm LAST! How fucked up is that... Laughable even if I'm in the mood...

(Suddenly reminds me of how if I'm not wrong, I was last few in class during sec 3 I think.. The same feeling of shitness)

Yes, I'm used to being in front... Not usually first but not ever the last too... I can't accept this failure feeling!

I'm struggling... Fighting. I need someone who can understand what I'm going through or have gone through it too... To tell me how to do better.. How to manage better! Cos I feel like I'm drowning sometimes... 

I wanna fight.. I know I will still fight on.., but today.... Today it feels just too hard and too tiring. I just ....,.. 😞

Maybe tmr will be a better day.. I pray and hope it will be a better day...

Please.

Donster turns 16mths

70wks 6days

According to the app...

Somedays i still look at you in wonder.. I can't believe that you came from within me.. 

Well, no better time than now to do a checklist on the milestones that u have achieved and the little wins up to date...

Here we go!

Words spoken:

ball (his fav!), papa (2nd fav 😅), mama (only when in desperate times.. fml), hi & bye (sounds almost the same)

Knows the name of the object: pacifier/zhu zhu, pillow, clock, star, flower, fan, light

Body parts:

head, hair, eyes, nose, mouth, teeth, hands, toes

Make the animal sounds of:

cow, elephant (this impressed me!), duck, chicken, dog, cat, lion 

Actions: wave, hi-5, shake hand, clap hands, flying kiss, stand, walk, wash body, wash hair, wash hands, flap arms as if flying, Cookie Monster eating cookie (😂)

Songs:

Will hum some parts of 朋友

Last words of each line in Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

The word 'back' in the song "my bonnie"

Ok la, I've bound to have left out quite a few things here n there.. But really not in the right mood to do this post actually..

Oh, yes.. He can walk pretty well right now too. Happily tottering from room to hall to kitchen and all.. 👍🏼

Yet to venture into letting him feed himself a proper meal. But he is able to put fruits or biscuits and stuff into his mouth. So will get to that soon ba...

Ok, shall end here... Feeling pretty awful now.. Perhaps will get to that tmr cos I know this feeling is not going away these few days ba...

Happy 16mth birthday son!! 🎂