I wonder. . . .

When u said that you understand, I cant help but wonder what exactly do u understand?? And how much do u really know???
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Im not sure if u'll read this or anything..And im not typing this just to get attention. This is just part of my life & thoughts that im putting into words so that years later, i'll remember and perhaps benefit from this experience.. Life is all about growing isnt it?

ANyway back to the point.. If one day when im totally over this, and have the guts to ask you.. I'll probably ask you why did u do what you did? Why did u have to make me for so deep for you?

Some part of me wants to talk this out with you.. A part of me is just afriad (of what i dunno)..A part feels that 'what's the use?!?!'..Not meant to be then not meant to be lo.. Accept n move on..
If i were to bring up the topic, i seriously wonder how u will react...hahah.. i dun think u'll initiate this conversation though.. sooo..mmm..cant help but wonder... haha..

Oh God, feels soo hard when i still have to see u everyday. Not seeing u hurts. Seeing u hurts as well.. Gosh...

God, please give me the strenght n faith to get through this...I still treasure the friendship. But please strengten my heart n bless me with wisdom to not fall deeper.. Oh God, please guide me through.. THank You..

Time for the walls to come up

Think it's time to start building up the brick walls-- around the strongest yet at the same time weakest muscle in the human body....

I dun want to go through this sort of pain anymore.. Too tiring and takes tooo much out of me.. Not young enough to endure this sort of pain. Love less..Hurt less.. Live life to the fullest in all other ways..

Im guess im still glad tt i got to know you cos i think part of the reason why i got back so quickly in terms of production at work is partially credited to you..So ya, thanks for coming into my life.. I just wish that if i knew then what i now know, i would have known when to back away..

oooh well...yet another lesson in "Life Sucks"..