Bye 2020; Hello 2021

Ahhh here we are again... the very last day of the year.

2020 has indeed been the most unique in recent years! Covid has definitely given the whole world a new norm!

When Covid hit spore in a major way around March, life as we know it changed drastically! For the first time in my life, we went on something called a “circuit breaker” where ppl were advised to stay home.

Meaning work from home if ure not considered to be under the “Essential work” category and home-based learning for the students.

Writing all this in a little more detail so that years later when I read back, I’ll actually remember how we managed to pull through this crazy, physically, mentally draining period!

Many days during that period, I can’t help but to wonder how differently 2020 would have been for me if we were without kids! Like no Don AND Rou! Hahah.... ahhh the peace!

But while their health were my top concern, I’m glad that I didn’t suffer any major anxiety over it. Maybe it’s also because we could manage our overall exposure outdoor.

So the risk was greatly reduced too!

Really Thank God for the protection and good health we have enjoyed.

Talking about health, I guess the most major health issue this year would be Don’s stomach pains.— He’s been experiencing stomach pain almost on a daily basis which eventually got his warded in July. Nothing conclusive on the diagnosis till now.. 🙄

Oh well, hope this pain doesn’t follow him into 2021!

I think the next biggest news would be baby number THREE!!!! 👶🏻 

As of this post, he is now 34weeks young! We’re looking at his arrival in about 3weeks’ time on 21st Jan!

In some ways I can’t wait for this whole period to be over! But the human mind is fickle and the flesh is weak!

It’s like this bitter sweet feeling knowing that this would be the last few weeks that I’ll ever feel a human move inside of me! (A whole human body and not just kkb la!) 😝

I think tts the thing I’ll miss the most about being pregnant.. baby’s movement inside my tummy. This little boy has been mostly a darling too! He doesn’t often push outwards like how Rou used to do!

It feels like he’s rolling around inside or turning very slowly.. quite cute actually. But to date, I have not managed to record a decent video of him moving in my belly.

Every time he’s doing a series of movements, I’ll start my video recording but then he’ll stop moving for a super long time after that! 🙄😒

And just realised that I don’t have any photos of my pregnant belly this time round too!!! Last pregnancy somemore already!!!!

How how how.... nothing physical to remember this last adventure!

Anyway I’ll update proper on baby’s development in the next entry before his arrival! 🤞🏼

So with exactly 3.5hrs away from 2021, I just pray for good health for everyone in the family, abundance of wealth so that we don’t have to struggle over money issues. I pray that we’ll stay strong and close knitted as a family and enjoy more special times together.

I also pray for the smooth delivery of baby A and may he be born healthy without any complications.

May my recovery be quick and as painless as possible too! Please please please... this I really praying hard for!

Aiyo this year’s nye post is all over the place! Hahah...

Next up, I pray that in 2021, wp n myself will get back our MDC GOLD title with ease! May business flow in smoothly all the time without much difficulty.

May existing clients refer new customers to us on a regular basis and May our career climb to new heights even though we have an additional baby to care for!

Praying for 2021 to be our best year yet!!!

God Bless our family and everyone around us!

[ps.. I was going to write more about how in the past few years, nye have been a little more extra special on a few occasions:

in 2009, we went out for the first time in a group to celebrate nye... back then he just joined the company and feelings were platonic (maybe borderline on the 看好他这个人😝)... but I rmb enjoying that night a lot and also praying on the fireworks tt night for someone special to come into my life in 2010. 

Then fast forward to 2012 nye, he proposed! On a stage no less! Amazing guts!

Extra extra special nye’s moments...

This year, I’m on the bed (time now is 9.30pm) trying hard not to fall asleep! With a damn painful back...

N he’s in the other room making don sleep.

Haha how different has life turned out to be..... but I’m happy.. I am.

Going to end here cos my mind is in a mess. 🥳]

Tough Life Changing Decision

For the longest time I couldn’t fully understand why women who had to remove their breasts would feel “less of a woman”.

Many were very self conscious and some even depressed..

I have always felt that body parts don’t and shouldn’t define a person or gender. How naive I was...

Because after ytd’s gynae appt, i think I can now feel just that little tip of the iceberg of that emotional and mental turmoil those ladies felt.

Ligation— tts one of the many things on my mind since ytd..

Hahah.. nothing super life threatening but it’ll definitely be life changing!

While my intellectual mind knows that it’s the right move to take for many reasons, there’s that weird bugging feeling deep inside that feels that it’s just wrong.

Like it’s not natural u know... im like consenting to destroy part of a perfectly functioning reproductive system that God has blessed me with!

(Something that some women may be praying very hard for......) and here I am, deciding to cut mine.

But like I said, with didi’s arrival soon, I’m more than content and blessed to have 3 children..

It’ll be financially difficult to manage another one but yet sometimes the human heart/mind is fickle.............

What if.........

It’s all those “what ifs” that will probably haunt me when it’s done and over with.

Maybe it’s because of that word “permanent” that makes it so much more difficult to just say “ok let’s do it!”

Like........... maybe................ we could afford a fourth? 🤣

After all these first 2 look soooo cute!

Thoughts on Baby Movements (wk31 update)

I think the thing I will miss the most about being pregnant is the feeling of baby moving inside your belly.

It is really not a feeling that can be easily put into words. But all mummies who have felt it will know how amazing this feeling is.

To me, every movement is a reminder that I’m carrying a life inside of me. It does get easy to forget about this little fact as one goes about the daily hassle of life!

The whole journey is after all a long and tiring 10months!

Then you know the feeling of how at some points u think you’re alone, but then u realise not really because there’s a being inside of you too. And that whatever you’re doing, this fellow is accompanying you.

I rmb how it felt with Don where I wished I could keep him inside longer because I had no concrete child care plans for him when he arrives.

It was such a headache and life changing period cos he is our first.

So at wk 31 day 4, baby #3 movements can be painful at times.. but he’s a much nicer boy compared to the Monster that rou was when she was inside!

At least this one doesn’t push outwards alll the freaking time!

But baby A, you really can move quite a lot you know! At times I will just stop whatever I’m doing to just appreciate the miracle of it all.... I’ll imagine what are you doing or how are you moving to cause the weird bump on my tummy at that moment.

After all, this will most likely be the last few weeks that I’ll ever get to experience this feeling.

Bitter sweet emotions.

Very soon it’ll get a little too  squeezy for you in there.. but please be nice to me ok baby!

I keep you safe and warm in there.... please grow healthily and don’t get too fat! You don’t have to win your sister’s weight of 4.2kg ok! 😂

Let’s try to keep it below 4kg this time round! U’ll be my pride and joy for being my only 3+kg baby okie? 😝

That being said, please continue to stay in there till 1st feb! 

Actually I know even you have no say, it’s all up to God.

So dear God, pls let baby and me stay healthy and safe till at least 1st feb. Don’t want what high bp or some other weird conditions that will jeopardise my overall health or cause a potentially dangerous situation!

Please don’t let me have to deliver earlier than expected.

Ameen......

Btw I think I’ve solved the mystery of why babies (when they’re born) seem to be able to sense it the moment u leave their side to go to the toilet etc— u know the motion sensor ability they seem to come with!

They have this amazing skill because they have been quietly observing our every movement and activity for 40weeks! It’s like spy work u know!

So much so that the moment you lay them down in their cot or leave the room, THEY WILL KNOW!

But that’s a misery to complain about for another day.

I’m just going to ‘enjoy’ and appreciate these last few weeks of baby movements in my tum tum before he becomes a real physical worm in my arms!

Love you baby A.... (yes, we roughly have a name in mind alrdy but somehow doesn’t feel like you leh..... haizz... we’ll see......)