Perseids Meteor Shower 2019 (failed sightings attempt)

Just came back from a 2.30am star gazing adventure with Don!

My heart is full and grateful to be able to make this (super fail attempt) middle of the night car ride with him.

After days of enduring his loud rowdy behaviour and crankiness because he’s sick, this half hr was nice because he was half sleepy half angelic and mostly cute. 💕

So even though

• the lights were too bright to see the stars properly
• There were many clouds present
• I dun even know if we’re looking in the correct direction! 🙈

It was nice to hold his hand as I stood outside the car, looking up into the sky... cool night breeZe blowing....

Even though shortly into our wait, the dear boy said “why no stars?? Let’s go home” 😅😂

I really enjoyed his company. Cos he was QUIET mostly! Hahaha... reminded me of his younger (cuter) self! 

There goes my intention of making some wishes on those shooting stars............. 💫

Voices

I just want to drive on and on.... the voices in my head are getting too loud and too noisy...

I realised that in recent months, my mental fighting power especially for work is almost close to zero.

Some days I get super motivated and want to catch up on this crazy shortfall. Many days I just want to just do my best and pray that it will be enough to pay the bills and feed the family. 😔

I’m not proud of this. I’m not proud of who I’ve become. I’m not proud of my short tempered outbursts towards Don this past week.

He’s been home on mc due to a bad case of cough and runny nose.... towards mid week I was a mummy monster so often through the day that even I hated me!

Hah... this time besides hormones, I would like to give some credit to the lack of proper sleep.

The other day, less than 2hrs into an appt, I started to feel shag alrdy.... usually 3.5-4hrs then my voice will give problems

But this time I could feel it ard 1+hrs

Haizz.... I should really go to sleep now

May tonight be restful and may tmr bring more positive vibes and good fortunes......

Dear God, please help me bridge up the shortfall successfully so that I don’t need to feel like a failure.