Happy 9months old Rou Rou!

Happy 9mths birthday to you, my dear girl!

In a few days’ time, the duration of you being out in this world would have been longer than when you were baking IN me! It’s surreal how fast time went by!

You’re really a fighter! So independent till it’s scary to me at times. Yet can get so manja that you make my heart swell with love 💕 

In the past months, you have achieved so many milestones with ease.. almost as if you were quietly ticking off all the boxes overnight and also while your older brother is keeping me busy!

I think you know how I feel that 24hrs with you is not enough.... tts why ure waking up at crazy hours of 5am/6am these past few weeks! 😡 

Please pity your old exhausted mummy!

Ending by wishing you continued good health, to grow well and remain curious of the world around you! May God continue to protect you always.

(And please stop bullying your gorgor!)

End of year stress! HATE IT!

Mia abit in recent weeks/ months.... so much has happened and is happening.

But mostly I don’t feel the ability to type out a proper post because I just feel so overwhelmed right now...... and that I don’t want to write stuff that are just temporarily making me upset or mostly due to hormonal changes.... (but glad that period is over! So hopefully I’ll feel better soon)......

Maybe this is just the ‘usual’ year end work stress due to shortfalls and all the other shit that comes along with it.

Definitely feeling more awful this year cos of the break I had earlier part of 2019 when Rou arrived..

Not only fyc shortfall, there’s also career benefits shortfall. Then the cpd hours also short...... then cards also no admin to do........ arghh

Worse to top it off, I just feel no energy to do anything.

It isn’t depression if I’m aware of it right? 😅

Haizz... really hoping it just the lack of proper sleep!

Cos some 8-mth old baby feels that it’s great starting the day at 5/6am every morning for the past week.

By the time she’s ready to go back and sleep, Don will be up. Which means no shut eye for me.

I hate who I have become recently. Always short tempered. Unmotivated. Extremely tired to the core. Always shouting at don. Definitely not really enjoying my time with the kids.

I am NOT this kind of parent. Really wanna step up my game!

Guess I better go sleep now and get whatever rest I can!

Hopefully it’s not gonna be another 5/6am morning start!