Emo emo supremo

Just went through so many very nicely taken photos on my sis's insta page.. Attached with captions that are so well written that I'm ashamed of my standard of language...

The photos of her travels, things that ppl overlook, the kids in our family etc... Perhaps it's the angle the pictures were taken or the editing/filters put into it, but after going thrgh it, I'm filled with one word -- envy 

Envy firstly of her travels and the bravery to do it solo! And envy of her weight loss out of sheer effort and persistence..

Maybe I was already in the emo mode before this... So this just adds on more emo-ness of how lousy I'm feeling!

Perhaps it's the time of the year where the figures reflected and expectations don't match. The way time is ticking by yet you have no idea how to clear the shortfall...

This always greatly affect my mood (and I realise hub is affected by it too! Not me I mean.. But the stress of getting it all done before the end of FY)

And this year not only do I worry abt the figures, there is the addition of the little boy.

Some days I feel like such a lousy parent and that I'm struggling so much. That hubs n me are just getting by.

Recently even had this thought (super negative, but it was honestly how I felt at that time): obviously not up for the role be it financially or emotionally yet still daringly 学人家,生孩子...

This is totally referring to myself and not what I see of wp.. In fact to be honest, he's more of a proper parent at times compared to me!

Haix... Really dunno what's wrong with me la.. Haven felt sooooo down and negative in quite awhile. This is really bad for my mental health man!

I'm gonna blame it all on the lack of proper sleep + crazy hormones!

Yet another week starts tmr. What will this week bring, I wonder..............

A post of Gratitude

It's been slightly over 1yr since the day that I fainted in the house toilet...

But on some days when I shower, I still can't help but to think about what happened/ could have happened...

I mean super drama can.. Blinded, went to pee, fainted, fits.. End up in an ambulance to hospital.

All this without me even remembering the fact that I went to the toilet! Seriously...

What I know is what was reaccounted to me by wp..

So it does get to me that so many things could have gone wrong! The worse being that Don could have been in life threatening situation.. 

He WAS actually becos of what happened.. But really have to thank God for protecting baby and me..

The fight I bet the doctors and nurses all put in to make sure Don was alright.. And then the grace that God has for me to ensure that I got through it all well too!

Beautiful stitches for the c-section! What more can I ask! Hahah...

No la, but the fact that I regained my sight on day2 was in fact a true blessing! I don't want to imagine what it could have been if that lost of sight lasted longer or even worse (!) was permanent!!

So seriously, while I joke how I wanna get rid of Don when he's being such a monster...... I'm really thankful God protected him! That He allowed Don to be part of our lives now and that even despite all the drama, he's not really with any major health issues currently.

For this, I'm eternally grateful. Once again, I'm shown the powers of the Almighty and humbled by the love he has for me & the ppl I love! 

❤️

Alhamdulilah.... 

Donovan is ONE!

The mighty proud moment when your firstborn reaches the milestone of ONE YEAR OLD!

That's 12 months of caring and giving every thing you got for a helpless little bundle of flesh that was blessed to you & your partner by the Gracious One Above.

I'm really really thankful for firstly a great husband who helped sooooo much in the preparation for Don's 1st bday party!

It's been super tiring to not only have to clear, pack and put together all the deco (not forgetting the anal wife aka me who has a particular order to the colours of the 'rainbow design' and keeps fussing abt it! Hahah)

After reading in the chat group about how so many mummies seem to put together the party on their own, I feel really blessed that WP wants to contribute to the making of the party of his son's 1st bday! 

Proof of the man in action 

Next, I'm thankful that even though Don has some existing health issues, they're not super life threatening or creating major problems in his development. Thank God that the heart thing is more or less settled.. Now just hoping that the testicle descends!!!

Eh testicle. Pls just auto get into the right position can! Don't make my dondon have to go through surgery ok!!!

Here's a pic of the super happy bday boy in his chair (that took soooo much effort to put together)

And what's a birthday without THE cake!

One word: disappointed

Haiz, firstly I was expecting the colours to be brighter not pastel like this.. Then as for the taste of it, not really up to expectations.. Like v dry..

Oh well... Just a startup biz.. What to do.. Luckily it wasn't too expensive and she's wp's client.. So... Oh well...

But I guess what truly matters is that this party was a gathering of people who loved him and took time out to be here to share this joy! 

On this really special day, I pray that Don, you will grow up very healthy. That you will be surrounded by people you love & who loves you!

I pray that you remain curious about the things around you as you transit into the 'toddler' stage of life.

I pray that all matters will be in your favour and that you remain protected by Him. (Because yr mama can be quite a klutz and also yr parents are v last min ppl.. So extra blessings from The One Above is very impt!)

I really really love you so much my dear son! (of cos will be yr daddy first then you  la)

May we grow old together in happiness and in agreement with each other's views of life and matters.

I hope we can always be able to provide you the very best in life (and may God help us to achieve that)

Happy Birthday Donovan Chia! Muacks!! ❤️😘