Mentally drained

Think I'm going crazy...

Is this post natal depression? 

The hubs show his anger, I get upset.. Mummy Chu her nonsense,I get upset.. Work screw up, I get upset..

Upset doesn't even really come close to how I feel..

Like recently the hubs keep doing this: he wants to go fishing or do something he likes la.. But then he doesn't go cos he thinks I'll be upset.. So end up he stays at home and mope ard the house.. acting like a lost puppy..

And it gets to me because when he is such a mood, he doesn't really do much to help out anyway... Just show tt sian sian face and move ard..

I rather he go and do what he wants because even he stay at home, he's not happy and doesn't take the time to sleep then stay at home for what..

Haizz... 

Ytd he got so verbally irritating that it just made me feel soooooo drained.. Esp with the mess I'm handling at work..

Which I screwed up further by forgetting to fill up a particular portion..

So when he showed his anger or rather attitude this morning, I cldnt take it le...

Broke down silently in the car.. Think tts my new skill.. Crying quietly.. Hah..

Shit, now I feel like crying again.. I AM going crazy..

Welcome depression! :)

Challenging day

Today is really proving itself to be very challenging....

And it's only 11am... Why do I feel soooo drained?!?!

I'm actually hoping for some proper rest soon!

Let's hope today's appts all go smoothly! Oh God help me please.... Ameen 

Don 13-16wks

15th jan:

Happy 3mth baby boy!!

U're soooo cute!! Eating yr hands la... Coo-Ing and all that chit chat...

Even yr yawns are cute!!! U can smile now but cant laugh yet..

Also like out of the blue, u suddenly can follow objects with yr eyes! So smart!!! 

Now u can follow where the sound is coming from and get excited when u see ppl u recognise!

Love to see yr developments as each day  passes!

Stay healthy my son!! We all love u a lot!!!

21st jan:

Don Don, u're almost 100days old!

Today u're 98days old... So exciting..

U did tummy time really well today.. Think u're gonna learn to flip pretty soon too..

Very cute la you.. Just filled with so much love for u!

23rd jan:

Happy 100th day birthday Donnie!!! Today we arranged for someone to come and cut your hair.. Because apparently it's good for the growth of future hair and also to remove cradle cap easier..

Mummy's heart abit sad to see this new look but u seem to be unaffected by it..

So at least tts gd.. 

Also suddenly 'talking' abit more after the hair cut.. So funny la baby... May yr new hair grow out fast fast and nicely.. Thick and brown (best!)... 

1st feb:

Mummy & daddy has been away from you for the past 5days... Today is the 6th.. Can't wait to see u my dear.. Smell your milky stench! Rub your still newly cut stubble on your head..

But we're really so blessed for technology though.. Cos because of the IP cameras we have installed in the room and hall, we can see you daily any time we want to! So so so thankful to have access to such technology..

Also this trip was a reminder once again to the great family support we have and enjoy! Really appreciate how your ah ma actually travelled up and down every day just to help your grandma take care of u..

When u get older, u must really respect these 3 v special ppl ok..

Nw as I do my last pumping overseas, I hope we have a smooth journey all the way back n so tt we don't feel sick at all..

Then at least when I get back tonight, I can fully take over from yr grandma...

Oh my Don Don... Really miss u so much right now...