Move up? Or not...

28th november 2013....

This year im faced with a different type of stress as the financial year ends.. Amount needed for this year target is done.. But number of lifes were a challenge. But tt is cleared alrdy as of this morn...

Problem is this: 

Few days back, E asked whether i was keen at looking at moving up in the coming year. It was a plan i had late last year.. But i decided to give up on tt early part of this year cos he was pissing me off too much....

I mean dont even look at the difficulty part of recruitment first.... But the emotional part of it, im also not too sure...

Im leaning more towards not moving up to management level. I mean in this industry, it's not just managing people.. Like as if u give them a pay. 

I've been an agent long enough to know that we agents feel that we are the ones who actually pay YOU, the manager. Tske it for the guidance or what.... Im actually ore worried abt whether is this what i really really want..

I mean i dont think i wanna move up then throw my guys to die...

Furthermore, this move would also mean that having a kid wld almost be impossible in the next 2-3years at least! Haizzz......

By then i wld be 31? Older than mama when she had boy2.... Not really what i want thgh.... But can i keep doing sales like this forever... For the rest of my career path...

This kids thing is actually a majority part of the consideration... I dont wanna choose to stick to the agent route becos of the idea of starting a family.. Thn end up years later, i'll regret this decision....

Arghhhh... Feel so split in my decision right now.....

Best nov in 7 years

Updates here have been far apart and few in between... Mainly if something pisses me off or is making me excited, i guess twitter world is where i'll update first cos i cant write a whole bunch of things there..

So in some way, thought are more freely expressed there rather than here... But once in awhile, reading back on old tweets, i still feel that blogspot can bring across some things better than twitter.. As in help me recall on the past events... Review n relearn some things from there....

Anyway as of today 18/11/2013, ive sort of cleared the target for mdc gold (38k) for this financial year.. Actually it was cleared very early into november.. My first time in 7years!!! First time i wasnt going nuts in nov.. The stress was evened out over sept n oct.. So i guess it was a gd move..

Cos as of nw, in nov, it's soooo nice not having to stress out too much over work.  But im taking the time to clear out the mess from before as well as plan for the up coming year. Lesser of the latter though..

Really need to put more effort there.. Else 2014 will be just as tough..

2013 has been a nice run work-wise.. Minor cockups here and there.. Conflict with the boss when it was nearing the wedding during the early part of the year..

But this year, ive met a quite a number of nice people who really helped me alot in my new biz creation.. 

Really hope 2014 would be even better in this area.. Wanna clear the Istanbul target by march if possible thn can work on the zurich target earlier.. With all that settled, maybe then perhaps i can look into family planning? :p 

Hahaha... The in-laws keep bringing that up man! Stressed....

To be fair, i wanna have kids.. But such things cant be rushed isnt it? I mean i dont want to bring a child into the world if i dont have the proper means to provide him or her with the best. I dont mean to spoil the child, but best in the sense of what i can give has to be decent. At least at the 70 percentile.. Ya ya... Tts a bit high...

But its like if there's a stroller i have to buy, i want it to be like really convenient to use and with great features.. Tts nt for the child, tts more for ME! Haha.. So with things like this, i rather be well prepared to have the money to spend on such stuff..

Ok, as I enjoy my drink, complimentary may i add, at the merc servicing centre, i just want to say that im grateful for everything i have now.

I just need a short break and then im all ready to work again!  :)

Till the next entry, take care! A pix of my 'baby' for now.... Love her lots lotssssss......