What am I doing?

The sales update chatgrp just showed someone declaring a $29k premium plan....

This is not the 1st time this FY that someone has closed a 5-digit case.

With a baby in my arms, trying to rock her to sleep......... it seems like the only ‘target’ I’m running these days are how much milk I can pump out/ how to time manage housework and Tasha’s milk time/ planning her milk times and my pump sessions

Everything is baby/ don related if not it’s house management related... it’s not that I don’t like doing those...

Just sucks esp at moments like this when I see my peers (esp those without kids) getting ahead in their careers and me, 13years in the biz yet still not a fucking breakthrough......

Barely managing now esp..... feel like I’m drowning in backlog and shortfall!

Heck, see even shedding a few tears now makes me worry that it will affect the amount I pump out once I’m done with this post!

What have I gotten to?!?!! 

Are these 2 kids worth the sacrifices I’ve taken with regards to my career? Heng I’m not some mdrt.... if not sure more emo!

Hope God will continue to look out for me and help me through this year.... just help me maintain mdc gold can le! Please bless me dear Lord! 

I pray for strength, energy and determination..... praying for patience and opportunities and especially guidance!

Please look out for me... ameen.....

And also please help me clear the block ducts in my boobies... hurting like mad. Maybe that’s why more emo..... 😭😪