THE Night Before

It’s now 10.35pm... I’m lying on the hospital bed with jay chou playing in the background on my ipad.....

I pictured this moment a few days back because I know I want to record down the very emotions I’m feeling right now. And so quickly, today is THE DAY!

Oh God!

Tmr we’ll be welcoming our 2nd child into this world! How everything is going to change just like that! In less than 9hrs!

I’m excited to see how she’ll look like....

I’m scared of the pain from the spinal epidural...

I’m dreading the pain from the c-Sec wound thereafter....

I’m worried that she’ll be a handful to handle!

I cant wait to hug this little person that has been growing in me for soooo many months!!! 

With don, I didn’t really get this moment to really reflect and write down anything. It just happened!

Arghh... You know what, I expected this post to be much better written! Hahah but I dunno why the words are not coming out right......

I’m just feeling so sleepy right now... haha.. the cosy lighting doesn’t help!

I thght I’ll be in a mess of emotions and tears... maybe that will come in tmr morning? Haha..

Oh man... how does one prepare the mind and heart for the arrival of another little human being?

The hubs says he’s ‘Nike— just do it’

I’m freaking out...... all the night feeds, the crying (!), the deciphering of baby cries, the torture of pumping (or maybe breastfeeding if this girl allows me to).....

Then there’s also the worry of her health condition..

Oh God please let dear Natasha be in the bestest of health! Let her lungs, heart and everything be perfectly formed!

Let her give a nice hearty cry when she comes out.. let her sugar levels be alright....

Please just let our little girl be in good health and also for the surgery to go well..

Don’t let me freak out on the table tmr...

And please don’t let the stitches hurt............ please let the pain level and everything be like how it was with don!

Oh man.... more I type, more I’m panicking!

Hahah, not helping the blood pressure issue! Think I better stop here...

It’s already a blessing that so far she has not made an earlier than expected surprise appearance (like her Brother!)

Wk 37.... wow.... thank God for bringing us this far!

Please dear God to continue to bless our little family.. ameen...