I need to break this cycle

"If I get 60years to live, I'm alrdy half done!" 😱😨

This thought came to mind suddenly while I was listening to '7 years' by lukas graham..

Cos his papa had 61...

Scary isn't it... When suddenly life doesn't seem like it'll be forever.......

What have I accomplished so far?

What more do I want to accomplish?

After ytd's review at work.... Somehow feel like crap... 10years.. With the titles achieved.. Mediocre.

Made too many misjudgements along the way...

Just feeling so down and out....

A good part of me knows that its correlation to the amount I have in my bank account... Haizz

A good cry will probably be only a temp relief.. But even tt I'm tired to do..

After so many times, the only 'cure' is sales to come in... 

So dear God, please help me.... Spare me the pain... I'm feeling so tired and torn...

How pathetic is it that few days ago I can cry in my sleep saying "我很累了... 真得很累了...."

Woke up to a wet face.. Haven cry like tt in the sleep for awhile le...

Dear God, please make things easier for me... I know that You're trying to make me stronger... But then please do grant me strength of mental and physical...

I think I'm breaking.