Midnight Frustrations

At 3.22am on the day that u’ll be returning from bkk.....

Filled with frustration and a little of anger... just basically negative feelings towards you right now! 😠😤

I’ve always known that u treat friends better than me as a wife or your kid... this has always been a known fact and nothing to be argued about regardless of what u have to say about it.

Cos even dest warned me about it all those yearssss back!

Knowing you, end up after reading this, you’ll probably be pissed at ME instead!

Why am I pissed?

Ever since u met up with the rest, I’ve heard from u lesser and lesser. I know, with more ppl, more activities... plus there’s the main sharing and all..

But if u can take a smoke or shit, u can also take tt time to msg and ask about how’s your kid or wife...

Both of whom are not feeling well,thank you... kid even has acute bronchitis yet ytd, I didn’t even get a msg from u that ure back to the hotel alrdy... even that basic last msg of the night also don’t have..

Even when u video called on the 2nd night, u practically didn’t have much to say to me! Have we gotten to that stage already? Nothing to say face to face or over the phone?????

Or just lazy and taking things for granted?

Do you know about the stress I went thrgh the last few days watching Don alone?

Did u ask me about it? Like b, how are u managing? Even at reservist at least u asked...

But this trip???

Yes sorry, I’m not the type of wife that can say, ‘Go, go enjoy your trip... don’t have to keep calling home. We’re alright..’

All I wanted was you to still show concern about us thgh you’re away.. I definitely know you still do think about us cos ure buying plenty of stuff for Don n myself...

But it’s not that type that makes me feel loved. Yes, got plus points la.. but the heart still feel abit fed up..........

I just can’t find the exact word to describe how I feel now.....

Maybe I’m overreacting... maybe it’s cos I’m just Super tired... maybe it’s feeling worse because Don is unwell... maybe it’s everything added together....

Haixx, I just can’t wait for you to get home and for things to get back to normal..

The accumulation of all the rushing and (almost) solo parenting for the past 20 days is taking a toll on me....

It’s like when u give give give and get nothing back, u just end up being so drained......

Good night bb.... I miss the old us with our never-ending conversations!