THE Day nanny leaves

The baby has been bathed... His clothes are being washed...

N in a matter of hours, the nanny will be gone!

I never thght I wld be this upset over her departure.. Perhaps it's the fear of what is to come...

I can no longer just 'dump' baby to someone who I trust.. Who I'm at least 90% sure she knows what's she's doing..

It's the end of my extended 'freedom' after giving birth slightly over 4weeks ago!

Am I ready?

Honestly no....

But I'm sure with support and help from the hubs and my mum, we'll get thrgh...

Of cos a lot of spiritual guidance from above too.. Hopefully baby will slowly understand our methods and adapt nicely...

N also we can understand him better on our part too...

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4pm:

Oh shit... I can just feel depression overcoming me...

Delayed post natal blues?

Baby is alright so far but I dunno y I'm just feeling so overwhelmed.. Like I really wish nanny can be here forever! N I just wanna cry now..

He fussed a little here n there but hubs have been a great help so far!!!

Oh gosh... Why am I feeling so down like tt....