Emotional
Have u ever watched a show or saw something that after the whole thing u feel as if something just clicked in you? You suddenly look at things a different way. Suddenly you realise a whole new thing about yrself that u never knew. Or perhaps didnt bother to take the time to know.
Well, earlier i went to watch a show. And I have never cried while watching a show before. But today i did.
Though because of the company i was with, i didnt exactly cry my heart out la! Just teared a little. Though i think perhaps i shld get a copy of tt show and keep it for life! Cos i think from time to time, i might find the reminder helpful.
The show is none other than Click. It really is one damn greaT show!! HonestLy!! If u're yet to watch it, pls do! Probably even the oNLY show so far that is worth paying $9.50 for! (wonder how come it's not getting as much publicity as it shld!)
Maybe the reason why i feel soo affected by the show is because the morals the show is bringing across hits right to the heart. My heart at least.
-pause-
Wow..really sooo many thoughts are running through my head right now. I really wanna put it to words. But it's sooo personal that i'll probably not put all of it here.
-thinks-
I know im sounding real weird right now. Prolly more so if u haven watched the show thus not understanding why im feeling this way. But just so as not to spoil the plot for those intending to watch it, i shall not mention anything. Just go watch it. Meanwhile bear with me as i 'write' out my thoughts to keep for future reference.
Hmm..I guess working sooOOO hard the past few months..Achieving what i did..THe HOURs and energy i put into the job. The hours i missed out with mummy and daddy (& family & friends too). Yah. ESP the hours i missed out with my mum and dad. I guess that hurts the most.
Maybe it's the results of messed up hormones that recently i have been thinking alot into this. Maybe it's the long hours i put into my work. The lack of balance between work and play perhaps. But the freaky thing is that the movie 'CliCk' somehow puts my thoughts right into movie-format!!
What I fear would happen to my life if i were to carry on the way i do...
What im gonna miss out....
Sighzz...
I used to think that all i needed to do was work real damn hard for at least the 1st yr. To prove to myself and ppl ard me. To provide fully for my family eventually. And esp to let daddy and mummy have a better life through their retirement.
But ive realised that in the past 3months plus, in doing so..working hard i mean..I have somehow left the people who i really care for out of my life. I barely even see my dad these days. It hurts. I dun wish to look back when i get older and wish i had spent more time with him. I dun wish to regret only when it's too late. Cos in life, unlike movies, there's no rewind.
So yes, i'll STILL work hard for this 1yr. But im not going to lose anymore time with the people i love just so that i can earn that bit extra. I'll just need to balance my time so that though i work, i still have time for family..friends...people who mean much more than money.
After all so what if i hit whatever targets i want.... So what if i get a $3000+ 4000 paycheck when im only in my early 20s...Those wun really mean a thing if because to get tt kinda amt, i lose out my time with the ones who really have been supporting me right from Day1. Right?
Work is endless. Possibilities of earning more is endless. But life isnt endless.
Yea, money can buy stuff. Money can even buy time. But i now believe one can also find happiness in life when there is a lack of money. Perhaps it would be more difficult. But nonetheless, life is a test. A test made much easier if u walk along with the love and support of people who are close to heart.
So from today on, im gonna make a change. It may be hard. It may take alot of effort. It may be more tiring than i can endure at times. But im gonna change. How?At this point, I dun have big plans yet. But i'll come up with something. Starting with small changes..
Daddy, mummy..I love you.
Well, earlier i went to watch a show. And I have never cried while watching a show before. But today i did.
Though because of the company i was with, i didnt exactly cry my heart out la! Just teared a little. Though i think perhaps i shld get a copy of tt show and keep it for life! Cos i think from time to time, i might find the reminder helpful.
The show is none other than Click. It really is one damn greaT show!! HonestLy!! If u're yet to watch it, pls do! Probably even the oNLY show so far that is worth paying $9.50 for! (wonder how come it's not getting as much publicity as it shld!)
Maybe the reason why i feel soo affected by the show is because the morals the show is bringing across hits right to the heart. My heart at least.
-pause-
Wow..really sooo many thoughts are running through my head right now. I really wanna put it to words. But it's sooo personal that i'll probably not put all of it here.
-thinks-
I know im sounding real weird right now. Prolly more so if u haven watched the show thus not understanding why im feeling this way. But just so as not to spoil the plot for those intending to watch it, i shall not mention anything. Just go watch it. Meanwhile bear with me as i 'write' out my thoughts to keep for future reference.
Hmm..I guess working sooOOO hard the past few months..Achieving what i did..THe HOURs and energy i put into the job. The hours i missed out with mummy and daddy (& family & friends too). Yah. ESP the hours i missed out with my mum and dad. I guess that hurts the most.
Maybe it's the results of messed up hormones that recently i have been thinking alot into this. Maybe it's the long hours i put into my work. The lack of balance between work and play perhaps. But the freaky thing is that the movie 'CliCk' somehow puts my thoughts right into movie-format!!
What I fear would happen to my life if i were to carry on the way i do...
What im gonna miss out....
Sighzz...
I used to think that all i needed to do was work real damn hard for at least the 1st yr. To prove to myself and ppl ard me. To provide fully for my family eventually. And esp to let daddy and mummy have a better life through their retirement.
But ive realised that in the past 3months plus, in doing so..working hard i mean..I have somehow left the people who i really care for out of my life. I barely even see my dad these days. It hurts. I dun wish to look back when i get older and wish i had spent more time with him. I dun wish to regret only when it's too late. Cos in life, unlike movies, there's no rewind.
So yes, i'll STILL work hard for this 1yr. But im not going to lose anymore time with the people i love just so that i can earn that bit extra. I'll just need to balance my time so that though i work, i still have time for family..friends...people who mean much more than money.
After all so what if i hit whatever targets i want.... So what if i get a $3000+ 4000 paycheck when im only in my early 20s...Those wun really mean a thing if because to get tt kinda amt, i lose out my time with the ones who really have been supporting me right from Day1. Right?
Work is endless. Possibilities of earning more is endless. But life isnt endless.
Yea, money can buy stuff. Money can even buy time. But i now believe one can also find happiness in life when there is a lack of money. Perhaps it would be more difficult. But nonetheless, life is a test. A test made much easier if u walk along with the love and support of people who are close to heart.
So from today on, im gonna make a change. It may be hard. It may take alot of effort. It may be more tiring than i can endure at times. But im gonna change. How?At this point, I dun have big plans yet. But i'll come up with something. Starting with small changes..
Daddy, mummy..I love you.
posted by Joyz at
8/19/2006 11:59:00 PM
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