Confusion

As always when it approaches the end of FY, both the hubs and I will get all bothered and tense...
He'll usually be in his own world of thoughts... And I will get my fair share of mood swings. Of cos v dependant on how our appts work out..

Really takes a toll on the relationship sometimes.. Cos thgh we may be with each other, but it's nt the same. The level of communication or mental availability is so much lesser and lower.

Anyway this, I guess, is something we need to learn how to manage.. Esp if we're looking into baby planning...

Honestly as what I told him ytd, I dont think we're in the position (esp financially) to have a kid right now.. Like it's never the right time huh?

I mean 9mths! Thn the rest of yr life when he/she is here! Hahah... Baby, if u somehow get to read this in the future, it's nt tt I don't want u ok... I'm just confused..

So ya, I'm gonna leave it up to God to decide when is THE time.
I'm v hesistant to only try when we feel ready.. Cos frm all these articles I'm reading, it takes 1year of trying for some! So by the time I think I'm ready, maybe got trouble then can't even get le!

Hmmm, think I shld continue this post another time.. Thoughts are all over the place right nw..

God, Please help me make the 18k figure lesser by end of this wk!!! Pls help me reduce it to 14-15k... Oh God pls help me.... Ameen...